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Tag: New Year

Goodbye 2017, Hello 2018

Alternative title : I’m not about to pretend that 2017 was anything more than an utter shit storm of epic proportions … That said, while you can’t polish a turd, you can roll it in glitter! 

2017 began as a nightmare, a grief infused devastatingly painful experience that I’m still amazed I managed to get through … Losing my dad imprints on my every waking moment, but that very first day of 2017 will always be the one that will hurt the most. Waking from a massive stress driven Migraine with the dawning realisation that my world had changed forever and that nothing would ever fix that left me, in turn, broken beyond repair. It was an excruciating level of pain, every inch of me felt the emotional and physical repercussions of that grief. I wanted to stop feeling … And for a little while the feeling did stop and a quiet numbness took over.

A resigned numbness that this new reality was one I would have to accept and no amount of throwing myself on the floor in a shrieking stroppy mess would change that.

A numbness that made things bearable … Just.

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January blues…

Alternative title: Caffeine withdrawal symptoms are kicking my butt (I get a strange twitch whenever I smell coffee), everyone I know is on a sodding diet (no I don’t want to know how many points are in a single Jelly Tot!) and my body clock is so out of sync that my brain is too puddled to register if I’m wearing pants (I don’t think this is unique to January though)…

 

I’m in the work’s car park with a puzzled look on my face…my legs look grey. This could mean that (despite still being half asleep) I managed to drag on some trousers OR (more likely) my milk bottle skin just goes that colour during the Winter months.

“I erm…I can’t tell if I’m wearing pants…of any kind” I mutter out loud, choosing to ignore the bemused looks of my fellow staff members.

“Trust me love, you’d be flapping in the breeze if you weren’t wearing anything” my brain said cheerfully. Git.

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